getting over him: 10 steps (he dumps you)

First, you kind of sense there's something wrong. You feel like he's dissapearing, like you are. The air is heavy... you can hardly breathe.
Second, He says it: "It's me, it isn't you", "I've a personal problem I have to get resolved", "I'm really busy, I can't be in a relationship right now"... Whatever phrase he uses, you just think: "bullshit", and kind of play it cool, kind of hoping it's just a dream, kind of begging it's a nightmare, and even waiting for the waking-up-part, the realizing-he-still-loves-you moment that never arrives.
Third, you're broken... you don't really want to talk to him, but deep inside, you do. Cause there's this hope that tells you he's going to regret it, he's going to ask you for a second chance, and say those three words again. And he doesn't. You're in denial, my friend. Maybe there's a little booze and some tears in this step. Totally normal
Fourth, SADNESS. It's really difficult not to cry, you're actually crying your eyes out and no word, no friend seems to be comforting enough. You just can't help it, there's a pain in your heart, a real pain which you can't handle.
Fifth, you enter in a zombi-like state, you're thinking it all through: when did i go wrong? what did i do that might've upset him? My friends even got to call me I was in a "bella" state of the new moon book. But it wasn't sadness.. i was just thinking, every hour, every minute, every second. You want to be busy, and start excercising, you get really hot (i really recommend this part, it works ;))
Sixth, there you are, talking to him again. Telling your friends he's just a friend but hoping he'll open his eyes and realize once again how incredible you are. But he never does.
Seventh, you think you're over him but you stumble upon a letter he wrote, then you just lock the door of your room, and cry, cry, cry.
Eight, you're finally done with the sad songs. You put a happy song in your room, smile and start dancing. Maybe you just want to pretend your happy, but by the time you realize, you're really enjoying yourself.
Ninth: You don't love him anymore, but you still think of him: why? cause there's no one else. Actually there's this fear you can't get rid of... will i find someone to love as much as i loved him? But there's no point in thinking that, now is there? You took a really big step. There's only a few days you miss him, you love him, you're grieving, but the rest of the days you're just happy... enjoying all the little things that are keeping you alive.
Tenth: You're ready for the cruel world all over again, you're just waiting for someone to caught your heart again. And it's always a mystery, it's beautiful. When you find him, you don't know what will happen, but you're hopefull he might be the one.